Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Life's Hypocrisy


Hypocrisy...
...right.

I know it hurts me if I'll explore it and yet, I keep on staring.

I know she still had this kind of sense and I feel insecure.

Damn this hypocrisy.

I can't close my eyes.
I can't be dumb.
I can't be insensitive.

I learned and used to suppress emotions...
...fear
...anger
...happiness

but now,

I can no longer control this.

I feel like dying.

I can't help visiting that page.
...self-torturing.


P.S.

God! It crushes my heart into pieces.
I know it's wrong.
I know it's non-sense.
But I'm affected.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Paul Coelho's shared Wisdom...

A bird sings because he has a song,
not because he has an answer.

---Paul Coelho's quote for the week.


The path to wisdom is not being afraid to make mistakes.

Nothing in the world is ever completely wrong. Even a stopped clock is right twice a day.

You are protected. But if you don’t take risks, God will retreat and become only a subject of philosophical speculation.

For the Warrior of Light, there is no such thing as an impossible love.
(Manual of the Warrior of Light)

And each man kills the thing he loves,
By all let this be heard,
Some do it with a bitter look,
Some with a flattering word,
The coward does it with a kiss,
The brave man with a sword.
( quoting Oscar Wilde in The Valkyries)

Unhappy people hate to be reminded that happiness exists.

Save your energies!

Anyone who interferes in the destiny of others will never discover his own.
(The Alchemist)

The warrior of light projects his thoughts beyond the horizon. He knows that if he does not do anything for the world, no one else will.
(The Manual of The Warrior of Light)


Just before a dream is fulfilled, the Soul of the World decides to test everything that was learned on the journey.
(The Alchemist)

The Warrior of Light knows the the old Arabic proverb that says: “God judges a tree by its fruits and not by its roots.”
(Manual of the Warrior of Light)

The Warrior of Light takes responsibility for everything he does, even if he has to pay a high price for his mistake.
(Manual of the Warrior of Light)

A warrior of light has no regrets, because regrets can kill.

He humbles himself and undoes the wrong he has done.
(Manual of the Warrior of Light)

A warrior of light has no ‘certainties’, he just has a path to follow,

a path to which he tries to adapt depending on the moment.
(Manual of the Warrior of Light)

The warrior knows that a great dream is made up of many different things, just as the light from the sun is the sum of its millions of rays.
(Manual of the Warrior of Light)

Thinking about the small things is not the same as thinking small.
(Manual of the Warrior of Light)

The warrior of light listens to Lao Tzu when he says that we should let go of the idea of days and hours in order to pay more attention to the moment.
(Manual of the Warrior of Light)

Warriors who spend all their time training lose their spontaneity in battle.
(Manual of the Warrior of Light)

Those who look on other people’s misery with indifference

are the most miserable of all.
(Manual of the Warrior of Light)

Anyone who gives help also receives help and needs to teach what he has learned.
(Manual of the Warrior of Light)

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

You...Just You

you're the one that never lets me sleep
to my mind, down to my soul you touch my lips
you're the one that i can't wait to see
with you here by my side i'm in ecstasy


i am all alone without you
my days are dark without a glimpse of you
but now that you came into my life
i feel complete
the flowers bloom, my morning shines
and i can see


your love is like the sun
that lights up my whole world
i feel the warmth inside
your love is like the river
that flows down through my veins
i feel the chill inside


every time i hear our music play
reminds me of the things that we've been through
in my mind i can't believe it's true
but in my heart the reality is you

♥♥♥
I finally found a song that can actually reflect what my heart wanna say. An old favorite song, I am running out of words to express what's really inside of me. I can't even say a single word. It is not always true that when a heart is full, the mouth speaks. This feeling has nothing words can explain. It's different.

Idadaan ko na lang sa kanta.


☺☺☺

Papatunayan ko...

Papatunayan ko na ako lang sa'yo
Hinubog mong buhay ko ng pag-ibig mo

Di na masusukat
Sandigan mong taglay
Magalit man ang langit
Di matitinag ang kulay
Diwa ko'y mamulat
Matapos ang gulo
Saan man dalin ng hangin
Papadpad pa rin sa'yo

Makinig kang mabuti
Buksan ng mapakinggan ng puso mo ang dapat mong malaman

Papatunayan ko na ako lang sa'yo
Hinubog mong buhay ko ng pag-ibig mo
Mamahalin kita, sa puso ko nandyan ka
Maiintindihan mo rin ako

Pinanggalingan ma'y magkaiba
Tadhana natin ay iisa
Ito ang sarili nating yugto
Bakit pa ako lalayo

Makinig kang mabuti
Pangakong walang ibang mas mahalaga
Yan ang dapat na paniwalaan, paniwalaan


Papatunayan ko na ako lang sa'yo
Hinubog mong buhay ko ng pag-ibig mo
Mamahalin kita, sa puso ko nandyan ka
Maiintindihan mo rin ako



Kay tagal kitang hinanap
Halos ikamatay
Nakaukit ka sa aking palad
Mawalay ka, mawalay ka
Di ako papayag

Monday, September 21, 2009

One Last Breath

Losing someone has never been easy.
...suffocating
...heartbreaking


...especially when you witnessed his/her
last grasping breath.

so peaceful
BUT
penetrating.


I have a friend whose mother died few days ago.
I witnessed how she tried to do her duty not just a nurse but a
daughter
as well.


Filling her mother's breath.

But then...

...after all.

She failed.

♠♠♠

Monday, September 14, 2009

On His Way... →RIZAL

Wish...Wish...Wish...

JETT: Is it about me leaving? Coz if you want me to stay, I'll stay.
CRIS: (cries)


Errr... I'm addicted to this music vid.
Kudos to its director and to silent sanctuary as well.
I'm so much related.
I admire the courage Cris portrayed. (wish I am like her)
Letting go and sacrificing for her boyfriend's happiness is unusual.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

It's killing me→→→♥♥♥

sometimes...

instincts ko tama

yeh! actually, as always..

but i wish not this time..

grave! mamamatay ako...

haiz...

i know it's not right to think bout it for now..

pero i can't resist the feeling...

hope it's not...

haiz..

→♥

Monday, September 7, 2009

Second Composition


You asked me "why"
I said "I don't know"
I saw colors in your eyes that pictures out your mind.
I said "don't go"
You said "I'll stay"
Pride empties my soul
You take it over.

Sweetness in my blood went out my lips.
Fear dissolves but it persists
Pain's overshadowed, drained teardrops.

I know this once in a lifetime of chance
With your arms around me
I won't slip it away because you're my dwelling
Like endless horizon.

(unfinished business)



working

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Turned nineteen (August 30, 2009)



I'm nineteen.
Nineteen years of experiencing the happiest
and the worst things on earth.

I laughed.
I cried.
I learned.
I loved.
I care.
I shared.
I achieved.
I failed.
A lot of things happen.
I'm no longer a kid.
I'm more than a woman.

and soon...

I will laugh...
I will cry no...
I will learn...
I will love...
I will care...
I will share...
I will achieve...
I will fail no...
...more than ever.

♥♥♥♥♥♥

This was the most memorable birthday I had.
He made it so special.
It was different from all birthdays I had.
No celeb.
No friends.
No gifts.
No foods.

Just with him.
He was the best gift I ever had.
And I could not ask for more.