Life's Hypocrisy

Hypocrisy...

...right.

I know it hurts me if I'll explore it and yet, I keep on staring.

I know she still had this kind of sense and I feel insecure.

Damn this hypocrisy.

I can't close my eyes.
I can't be dumb.
I can't be insensitive.

I learned and used to suppress emotions...
...fear
...anger
...happiness

but now,

I can no longer control this.

I feel like dying.

I can't help visiting that page.
...self-torturing.

P.S.

God! It crushes my heart into pieces.
I know it's wrong.
I know it's non-sense.
But I'm affected.