Twilight

TWILIGHT is an action-packed, modern-day love story between a teenage girl and a vampire. Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart) has always been a little bit different, never caring about fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix high school. When her mother re-marries and sends Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn't expect much of anything to change. Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson), a boy unlike any she's ever met. Edward is a vampire, but he doesn't have fangs and his family is unique in that they choose not to drink human blood. Intelligent and witty, Edward sees straight into Bella's soul. Soon, they are swept up in a passionate, thrilling and unorthodox romance. To Edward, Bella is what he has waited 90 years for - a soul mate. But the closer they get, the more Edward must struggle to resist the primal pull of her scent, which could send him into an uncontrollable frenzy. But what will Edward & Bella do when a clan of new vampires - James (Cam Gigandet), Laurent (Edi Gathegi) and Victoria (Rachelle Lefevre) - come to town and threaten to disrupt their way of life?

If i were a BOY...

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted then go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
Cause they’d stick up for me.

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

[Verse]
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

[Vamp1]
It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

[Vamp2]
But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
Yeah you don’t understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you’re just a boy

Everything is a lie...

I feel betrayed...really, I admit, there were no tears, no feelings at all. It's vague. I am vague. All of those are vague. My emotions no longer exist. I wanna cry out loud but I think my lacrimal ducts have been blocked with too much pain (or maybe just dehydrated). Kidding aside, I'm really confused of what really happening in my damn life. It's damn, as what I said. Damn nothing. Is it really easy to play my heart? Am I destined to be broken? Nah! It's no longer just an emo-sense. It's really happening, now, in me. I know...it's just a feeling (pain) and it really kills... kills me. You know what I mean?

The liar, the immature.

It's him.

I thought he's enough for the love and the care I've waited for a very long time. But it's the relapse... of previous heartaches. I hope you know what I'm talking about. (sorry to those who can't comprehend). He didn't even give reasons and silence really hurts damn more...more and more. I did love him. I DID!!! And maybe he did the same thing too, for me (probably when we were together). He told me true love never dies. It's from him...from his damn lips and now all I know is a lie. A LIE!!! Is true love never die? I think Joshua Kadison's a liar, too.

"We won't say goodbye, coz true love never dies."

ALL OF THESE A LIE. I must have learned from the very start that there are no such thing as true love. True love dies in a natural death. And it was proven with evidence. Wanna know? Put me in a exploratory laparotomy and you can see my heart broken and dried with so much pain attached into it.

I wanna feel something. I wanna be hurt. I wanna feel the pain because I know it will just pass but damn, I feel nothing. I'm senseless. He hurts me so much and it's too much already. I don't wanna try to forget him. It's just making me fool. Fooling myself to try hard. It's true, we can forgive but we really can't forget.

All I can say...

...now,

...I'm meant to be broken.